Remembering the old

So I listen to alot of people wanna forget everything they went through or had growing up.Some people that whine and bitch about how shitty their lives were.Well let me tell you.You sound fucking pathetic for the most part.So of course meaning that some people bitch cause they never got clothes they really wanted and never got a new car for a birthday or only got 20 bucks for allowance.That sure the fuck is not a struggle and something to forget.If any,remember how much of a suck tit you were.Sometimes we dont wanna remember where we were or where we came from.But the fact of it is,It is only life.Not all of us can go through life without a story.Most of us have one,Whether it be dark or colorful.Regardless we should never hide from it.It is a past of memories that can either haunt you or fuel your future.Life's struggles are real and have long term and short term effects on the mind.With each breath our lives can change at any moment.Let go of the useless memories.But some of those bad ones define who we are and who we have become and will become.No matter how rough your memories are,you have from day one always had the choice to change it or prepare yourself for the future and a change.Now as a child we were always left without many choices as we were minors.So in my era many of us got ass whoopings so bad growing up,myself one of them.At times I wished I was dead at as young as 10.Sometimes I think I deserved a ass whooping dont get me wrong.But when I look back now on how it was,I sure the fuck never deserved the whoopings I got.My memories of my childhood I had blocked out so bad,now many of  them thoughts in my head were buried so much.Remembering my childhood to this day is so hard picking memories because it started to cause internal and emotional damage to my integrity.So I blocked them well,not knowing one day they would make me the man I am.But older I got and more mature I got.Made me realize remembering some shit from my past is what made me who I am today.I got in alot of trouble,I will not list my old crimes.But will say I was a bad ass and hard core...These choices the older I got made it clear to me,alot of my choices were MINE.I wanted to learn from my mistakes and grow with them.I did,I went from a very abused mad and crazy child to a pretty fucking decent guy.Funny thing is when you remember about your past.You always run into these dumb fuck wads after 15-20 years and they all say the same.I thought you be dead or in jail.Fuck off you yoke head fuck.Rarely you see people not grow up in life and find themselves.Moral of this post is.No matter the neighborhood you were raised,the ass whoopings,fights,drugs and more.We learn from these experiences and grow with them.So like I said,forget the stupid fucking whiny ones,but remember the struggles.They are gonna make you fight and thrive for what you want and dont want.Have a fabulious fucking day all.Be groovy,Be stellar and be you.Rudi Jensen