Lost or Over thinking

So for a whole lot of you out there,what I am about to say throughout this article/blog post. Should hit home with what I am saying for alot. Those of you who claim to be perfect and read this and say...I never had that,well your either on mom's titty still or full of shit. Now to get on with this. So lost is the best known title for this,my bad parts about writing is never knowing what the fuck to name something I write. Kinda like a new baby or a dog. About 43 names later and you come up with Fred or Antonio or Edna or Susie. So many of us have so many hard fucking days where we feel lost,even though sometimes they are not bad fucking days,they are days we made bad by being lost in our thoughts..best way to say it is LOST. We worry about our love lives wondering if we are doing things right and our partners are happy and satisfied. We go to work dragging our asses over thinking for majority of the day. How shitty our jobs are and the ride to work is. We have difficulty arriving awake to many things we do throughout the day. Whether we are at kids soccer,work or the grocery store. We are like zombies,for most parts we enjoy our lives and at most are mostly happy or faking they are. We are constantly worrying about something,which drags us into a state of being lost in our minds. For no reason we have break downs trying to succeed and make a better life for ourselves. Our children mean the world to us and we worry ourselves to the ground trying to perform the best to impress and address. Each day seems like we lose endless sleep and personal time between sports and kids,dinner,laundry. We get lost in our own thoughts. Worrying how to budget every month with the fluctuation costs at the grocery store,power,gas,etc. We are constantly getting lost in our thoughts. Your asking yourself...Does this mother fucker have a solution.Hell no.I get lost as much as the every one of you. If not alot more,my life is super stressful having a big family.Feeding for 7 was the hardest thing I ever did.Trying to raise a family on one income and having so many costs,school fees,sports,food,power,gas,groceries and etc.Fucking hard,took me so long to figure out how lost I really was "still am" . When I say lost I mean withdrawn and sad. Emotional at almost every moment that passed.Things I learned about being lost in myself and thoughts. Is that really there are some things we have total control over and others only partial or not even a close fucking grip.And if so a grip that is weak as a hair strand.But spending all day thinking about them got me totally head spaced fucked all the way and nowhere.I felt like Homer Simpson when people talked to me as I was always.Thinking,thinking about something to push me forward or how I was gonna budget and still manage activities and etc.Cause damn it,seems as much as we make.We spend and need alot more.So either way we are constantly thinking of that.Some struggle really bad and have no options.But as I say options are only options.Not all are for everyone.No matter unless your so called rich.Even middle class struggle unless you run off credit cards.Life is tuff,seems the more money we make,the more taxes that are taken and more costs for food gas and electricity goes up.It is like the fuckers know you got a raise.So once again we get lost thinking again about what we are gonna do.This is what I did,I gave myself only certain times to stress,get lost in myself,cry,get mad at thinking too much .I call them business hours.From 7 am til 530 pm I allow my head to do what the fuck it wants with thinking.No matter how much you get lost and stay prone to thinking about the same thing.Sometimes not only does thinking get you nowhere.But that over thinking is taking precious time out of your life from your kids or friends or YOURSELF.So I know alot of you have these feelings.Unless you were wrapped in gold and in money.We all struggle,master cards dont make you rich,lol.I know so many think that.The one's without the cards are the ones I respect.They work to maintain,not work to inflate the interest of there cards banks.No really answer to give you for what would be best solution for you.Besides to not get lost over things that thinking the same thing all the time,will not get us anywhere.So remember the tax guy,the gold in the chickens ass at the grocery store.It is all life,we can utilze what we got and what we can push to achieve.But it is not worth losing our minds and ourselves over it.Keep your heads up and always remember baby steps are the best way.Rudi Jensen