Christmas blues

Ok so I have had so many emails about Christmas blues. Stemming from divorce,new lovers,family fueds,depression,anxiety and lack of money. So let me tell you this.No matter what,the majority of us are never truly expecting it or prepared for it."Even though it comes yearly". Unless you are some Martha Stewart fucking model. After Halloween we are all in the same boat. Going ah for fuck sakes Christmas is next. Our panick mode kicks in at a alarming rate. We stress,we get mad,for some reason that is the time when our bills pile up,we fight with our spouses and wanna string them as lights. Now dont think I dont know your all thinking that shit.. Last year or the one before you had those thoughts.. We are flabber gasted we got to deal with family we see only once a year.. Yes that is right cause those are the ones that need throat punches.And a beating by 20 elves. We have all the Christmas parties to go to,every year it seems as we have good times,but we always have alot of shitty ones. Not sure about the rest of you,but having 5 kids. Wanna talk about a mad panic of feelings.Holy shit it rushes through my veins like a raging river.. Myself I have some family I don't mind seeing,but at the same sure in the fuck dont look forward to seeing some when it happens. The money we all have major panick attacks. See myself I dont use credit cards,not cause I cant get one. Because I look at it as if I cannot buy it straight out.I dont need it. Why pay a over abundance of fee's and interest for something. I refuse to support myself losing out on cash. Now those of you that go in for it all with those credit cards. Well you fucking suckers are paying for one day of greed and laughs and memories for a year of interest. I know right..SUCKERS. So with that,now ever time that bill comes in you are like...fuuuuck. So the strain on relationships are just insane. I watch total loving couples wanting to kill each other over the holidays cause of spending and stress. Now dont get me wrong,before kids I was a huge fucking Grinch.So I get a tone of emails from men and women all bitching about the spending.BA HA HA HA I say.So either way ladies and either way guys your fucked.Christmas gifts are like Valentines day. Forget to buy something for that.You are fucked,in the dog house and getting no sexual anything. So with spending yes I believe there should be limits. But see all those items stores could sell at easy prices through out the year.. Well them dick wads lower the price so much. Why not buy. But when you are buying shit you cant afford and going in dept for.. Yes a huge strain on your relationship. Then on top of that all the parties for work. Well damn the emails on that shit is so funny and disturbing. Marital affairs at work parties,affairs come to light,side chicks and side dudes get emotional and want more. So of course betrayal comes and crashes through the door.. So in other words some people should keep their flappers and cocks to their own. Causing a huge up roar,relationships hit a huge strain with inlaws and etc. See cause this is when all them fuckers you dont like. Well yes that is right all become fake and wanna hug you,give you a what I call an obligated holiday card. One you wish they would of just saved the buck 50 and not bought it. Knowing damn well it will start the fire later..So family meets either turn well or turn into a nightmare. Drinking starts and the old family fueds come up again. So yah that shit is bonkers. Some families should just stay home. Now we get to the bills section of the holidays stress. We consume more power for lights,longer hours we host friends,family and fake people. Our gas costs soar as we seem like we do endless driving,our liquer bills and food costs soar through the roof.Grocery stores take their sticks out ready to rape us with the cost of product going through the roof. So what I never understood was,electronics,toys,clothes.DEALS everywhere. Go to buy a steal,turkey or sausage.You think the store stuck a diamind up the animals ass. The cost is fucked.So that in its own kicks us down to the curb. I try to tell people,when they stress over money,Dont buy for everyone and dont feel obligated to.See myself I just give cards if you dont live with me. To me it is not all about gifts. But the time and love,passion,laughs and memories created. We will always have stress no matter how much we avoid it. Funny thing is,certain stress loads that come our way..We open our arms wide for them. The stress we know m,ight kill us. But the memories are so worth it. Not much advice anyone one can say about so called Christmas blues. But dont over spend,dont hand any throats punches out. Love each other and stay tight.No because suicide and depression is so big out there during this time a year.My advice is that you keep your head up as high as possible. Avoid any situation where you might have panic atatcks or high stress places. Some of those out there are alone for Christmas,that is bloody hard. You might be thinking well how do you know.. Well I spent many solo before my family I created. I was and still am the black dog in the family. So for too many years now..I cannot remember when I was invited to a brothers,mothers or fathers home for the holidays. It bothered me for several years and every Christmas I was a depressed wreck about it. Hurt like I was being repeatedly stabbed. To this day it is the same way.I am lucky if my parents call to even say hello. Yes in some ways it still bothers me,but I dont stress over it. No matter who we are,we can adapt to most and any situation to be real or fake. This season brings that shit out in people. Nothing like someone who tore your life up or caused a strain with drama. Boom the mofo calls to say Merry Christmas. At that point you are like fake now..ha ha. So we all gonna have many feelings good and bad.I say go with the flow.. The gong show ends as fast as it comes. Dont like family,dont go.Cant afford it.Dont buy it.Married...DONT TOUCH IT.Bills will always be there,so live with it.To end this.Please those of you that are feeling depressed and thinking or contemplating suicide.WRITE ME,let me talk some sense and reason into you. All holiday is no reason to be rid of yourself.You all be groovy,be stellar and be you. Be strong and remember if your feeling like giving a throat punch or a beating.Sit down Tonto and wait for a different season to smash. Be with family,friends,if you have none.Be at whole with yourself. There are alot of people alone out there. Connect with others. Start new friendships,love and new beginnings.Cheers Rudi Jensen