I just wanna remind you all about falling

We live in life trying our very best at everything to make it better and more fullfilling. But in the end exhausting ourselves a great deal. Unable to breathe at most times and try to make sense of why. We carry our heads low looking for ways throughout our minds to escape. Cause every moment,every breath you feel like you are drowning for air. Our inner body only take so much letting ourselves die on the inside. Well that is happening to most of us,smiling on the outside only. Life is not always gonna be rough for you. If it is with people,get out of there and find some other folk to be around. I know in life having all the wrong choices of friends. Can do that to you. Money does not grow on tree's,but a work week does. It will bring the money,there is always something. Being comfortable with ourselves in this day and age,seems for most to be a great task. I understand,I used to just hate myself and wanna die daily. Stress and a path taken wrongly in life will do that to you. It is ok to die on the inside and you might never get that advice from anyone else ever again. I have been there in so many low life moments where I thought I needed help from others. But it was I that I needed,needed to come out and learn and move on. Some people will,but not all will need another. Myself I never did,I was not strong then either. I barely liked the fact of who I was all the way around. I was lost in a world that seemed all to nonexistent to me. Once I learned I can't blame myself for everything,that helped some. But not all the way,I spent alot of time surpressing memories of one's I never needed or where a life was left behind. Yes that is right,useless memories are a burden. We delete old unwanted files on a computer. So why not in our heads? No shit it is not easy,but it can be done and needs to be done. No one ever wants to sit in a deep luring place,lost and locked away from the outside world. That destroys us in so many ways inside and out. Our minds will go and so will our bodies,none of us like feeling like shit. I would love to be able to teach everyone how to love themselves and have better outlooks on things. But each to their own,we all have our brains wired differently. Does never mean suggestions don't work,just not all. Each and everyone of us has to find our own way to channel our feelings. Is the only way to truly be happy,we will live a long miserable life if not. The dark and lost feeling it does go away and it may not be fast. But it will and all you got to do is fight for it,don't let the shitty way win. We are better then that and we know that we are. But like many other things in life,we forget about that. Losing our minds is not a way to live,making arrangements with your mind is. I held for many years a deep dark beast inside,one that lurked through out the day and night. Searching for a way to take flight and leave it all behind. The more I searched,the more I lost myself and fell into the darkness. I cried daily and cried hard,in pillows,in the shower. While I was on walks in the park,cry myself to sleep at night. One day I was like fuck this, I accept the fact life sucks for me right now. And that is the thing and key words "sucks for me" life in general does not suck. The life I was living did and only I could accept and change that. Many people use money as a fall down,in many ways it is. But in a non cold hearted way,that is life. You want it,you make it. Money should not be only thing to make you happy,that is just the wrong out look.. We can always learn to be alone,we spend alot of time in life over hardships with relationships. You can't love and make someone else happy,if you can't love and make yourself happy. That comes from making a whole with yourself and knowing that you are the one. The one to make things right, Yes yes I know some people need meds,who cares. With them,they help them move along and that makes them think clearer. So nothing there for a excuse for that,drama comes and drama goes. All depends how long you wanna hold on to it and put up with it. My message here is that no matter the struggle or pain in your mind lurking inside. Darkness comes and darkness goes,everyone needs to remember that. What we dwell on,only feeds it more and more means less you time and everyone else time. We hit a rock bottom state of mind,we lose people because we fall into the darkness. Remember feeling like you are drowning or dying inside is natural. I recommend let it be only a temporary feeling and never a permanent feeling. You all keep your heads up and just remember it is ok to break,cry and spaz inside. Just look for inner ways to heal the process that is best for you,not for smeone else. Rudi Jensen

Be groovy,

Be stellar,

and always

Be YOU...