Opinions over chasing family

So sometimes I have conversations with people telling me to chase my family. I hate pushy assholes,sure you all know one. I really don't care if we are blood or not. When there is nothing but drama,lies,anger,trash talking,pure hate and snottiness. Fuck that,so this subject pisses me off when people tell me to forget and connect. I have forgot the 3500 hundred beatings I recieved. I forgot about all the lonely cold and scary nights sleeping on the streets at 13 in middle of winter because I was thrown out of the house. A mother does that,a father lets that..Fuck that is so wrong. I was mouthy at home,not a little stealing,smashing machine. I left all those memories from my mind,those who knew me. Knew my ass was whooped and my parents catered to my little bitch brother. I guess people who grew up in homes that had loving parents and caring one's. Well of course you don't get it,in my 40's I knew when I chose to walk away. I knew it was for good and not temporary,some get pissy because I say fuck that to family. But no matter blood or not,if a relationship is more pain then anything. Kick it to the curb,keep walking. I will always encourage people whether it family or not. To walk away from something that cause's pain so much. But at any case,not coming back in forth either. You wanna walk out,stay out. If you have any common sense at most people's adult age. You know damn well toxic is toxic and destroys the mind. I lived from about 6 or 7 years old til about 20 trying to get family to love me. I got drained physically and emotionally doing the chasing and dying inside. So again I will say unless people can relate or been there,hard to give a opinion if it never happened to you. When people say I have life experience,usually means they have had it happen to them. And not all of us had happy and loving homes rising from juniors to adulthood. But in every sense I get it here and there and I am always firm to anyone to tell me to chase. Before my father died,I was there for him daily. Getting nothing in return but hate. So yah if you out there avoiding blood because of hate,drama,black dog. Stay away if it hurts that bad. If you have love for them,I encourage you to do your best to salvage. Myself I stopped loving my parents years ago as parents. I loved them for giving me life and that is all. So please remember if someone is stating how they don't wanna be apart of family. Not everyone hurts inside over that at all. Sometimes it is just more of a relief then anything. They should not be pressured. But if you act and say you hate them,but still find yourself thinking or talking about them. You still love them and should pursure them. Just in any personal issue one has with family,it is always a touchy subject. For me it was not easy walking away at first. In any sense people will love who they want and who they don't wan't. That is just life and being blood does not make life. Rudi Jensen