How to date in year 2019 with all the confusion on what to do and how to say it.

Not sure about the rest of you, unless you some coochie flashing romping queen or some hot dog flicking prick looking for good times. You are confused to know where to start,myself I got a gazzillion questions on dating. Like when to kiss and when to not. Ask or just go,don't wanna butt heads. I myself I am pretty fucking clueless to when a women wants me. And yes I say women,not some hoochie wanna fuck me cause I am some pretty boy candy. Hoochies make me have like a bad taste like I ate a shit candy. Anyway when to text,write,call and how often ?. What is too much and what is too long ?. Am I supposed to message or call first or is she. Is that who shows the interest more or the needy ?. Like the shit I see on social media gives me bloody nightmares. I could never just go and eat ass on first date or fuck a ass. Well anytime neither, that is shitty and I don't like playing in shit. Like this babe and darling right away stuff,old fashioned hello beautiful's are not here or are they ?. I see a 2 sided dating world that leaves me so many bloody questions. Like really in reality it was really 20 something years since I had a real date. Of course I would be nervous as fuck and totally really there but not. I know how to act around a women, but I see so many women liking assholes and complaining about sweet guys til they get hurt. Then they want a sweet guy again. Double standards don't work wtf. See there are plenty of dick out there and plenty of vags. But finding the one you don't wanna strangle is another. So how often should you see each other ? what is too much ?. Do I fuck if she wants or hold out and be called friggit or hope she thinks I am respectful ? So confusing omg it is raining balls of confusion. So the expectations on us all are out there and many attractions go with it. Many people like romantic shit and other people like eating shit. Some like flowers and romance,some just don't handle compliments or gestures. Some are just wanting to fill a quick void for a night tor 2. Never understood on how to tell the difference. To me life is not all about looks and some people are strict with that. I hate just being meat and until I got muscle and a facelift "NOT FOR REAL" I never understood how mostly women,but some men. Why they get pissed off,but when people are interested in you. Cool,but if it is only gonna be about my body and looks. Hearing from your partner compliments daily is one thing,but listening to multiple strangers daily. Yah gets old fast, so I understood that. Now for me to meet someone who is like me would of course be the bomb. But shit like that happens only when you eat bad food and you know where that is going later !. A mini me would be fucking stellar, athletic, tomboyish,but girly and a outdoor queen. That is what I would go for before some materialistic non active. Fuck yah. I dont really believe in many worldly claims,but fate sure does bring some things and some people. Straight into your arms or straight down the stairs cause they fucking annoy you. Dating too with the views and opinions of friends I find it even harder. I take my friends views for alot of things. But trusting the judgement of friendship with my penis and heart. Not happening as much as I love my friends. So who makes judgements in that really ? this is why I find friend set ups bad. Then now you will be the friend fucker all the time,I dont want that on me. But some do it still. So now social media,do I like pictures and comment ?. I thought browsing photos was a way to see how someone is and learn about them. Recently I understood some find that creepy and serial killer like. Fuck me that don't sit well,so what is the normal dating RULES or COURTSHIP process. How do you learn besides questions ? pictures are a way to see inside of who there are,if they are real with their words and if integrity in indeed intact. WTF does a person do,like joining a government office with all these different do's and dont's and then all the flavors of what to do next in a store. Like who pays for dinners ?I think it is a man's duty. But some think different on that two and of course communication is key to anything from start to finish. Now compliments wtf is up with that shit ? I teach people if you know it is sincere. Suck it up,but also some people are not used to them and awkward when told. So that is a question I am just baffled on,what to do,what is too much? Is there a too much? Do people wanna be told,I know one of my ex's wrote them off like the extra flavors of the week she was fucking on the side each. So some like and I guess some don't. I will always tell a women who is beautful to my eyes. I could not give a shit if anyone else tells them or not. As long as they know my words are sincere,the others will never matter. Now all this other shit on social media about choking,I am fucking sorry ma'am. You want that shit while I am with you,choke your fucking self. If you try to choke me, I am gonna go limp faster then a 90 year old kicked in his wrinkled nuts. So what do you really do if you bumping the uglies and boom ?. She like choke me and you about to blow? I be like nope,nope,nope,nope. I just not into that shit. You wanna roll down a mountain,go mudding,climb a mountain and fuck the old fashioned way or make love. Yup we on like Donkey Kong. There seems to be no chance on finding much in this world,all the meet and greets we have are gonna take a toll eventually. Life in 2019 seems to be a up grading game,before it was about money. Now it about the looks and body without love. How many people actually make love now ? most just fuck and there is no passion. Kissing is omg wow so hot, now I rarely see that shit anywhere out there anymore. Let alone public affection,why when with someone do you wanna hide ? In reality the more the years go on and the older we get. Shit only get get more bizarre with trying to be happy. So I say good luck to those in 2019,I am going in confused like a swatted fly. How do I tell know if friends are sincere or are jealous of who you wanna date ? Shit is confusing,dating sure the fuck is not like high school where we are like, " Hey whats up " then you balls deep in minutes and have a relationship and it clicks at most. Yah right now it is sooooo like a resume for a job interview or a whore fest trying to impress. I am not a fan of one night sex dating. Guess I am old school,but I refuse to date a women who puts out first date. Just me. Some are just out there being desperate and how the hell you weed them fuckers out there ? Nowadays, you enter a brief relationship medication free, week later you are on them. So who the fucks wants that shit. ? Nobody obviously, but it is a vicious circle out there. Am I good enough ? should I change for someone ? Will someone change for me ? Do I need to love myself ? Why do they want me ? These are things that need to be asked and not forgotten. We all have our own minds and own hearts. We are supposed to care for them and keep things up in our minds. Almost impossible with all the bullshit that comes in dating. Like can't find that one fit, should I go back to ex. Don't never ask yourself that shit,the answer is always no. If we don't fuck, we are a bad seed and no one wants us. So, society says I need to fuck on first sight to have someone. I believe in love at first sight and strong connections. Well folks lube works very good. What if I find the right one,but they have addictions. What if they are a drunk and makes everything about them a bore. So much fucking to find the right one, well I'd feel like whore if I did that. How do you go in when you are still broken ? Should you when still healing ? Should I have a rebound or not ? And people want so many various types of everything,where to start. What is up with the extra cold hard to get shit,chasing is ok. But sometimes you chase them away. Some are so into you, but when interest is not showing back cause you being hard. Well when they walk you know why,not everyone is into hard to get situations. Like I like you,but I dont. But really want you in my life but I am a hard ass. How do you deal with that ?. So much out there that the nice are lame and the assholes and bitches are game. Does one change to be with someone ? I myself think not. But some do and always will, people will always talk themselves up to get with someone. Is that a thing to do ?. I never wanna do that just to be with someone. In reality it is confusing where to start and all the parts inbetween. We all enter with negativity cause we were broke before. Not that I don't recommend to be careful,but if we always have walls too high and too many negative thoughts and make it difficult to let someone in. We could lose the best thing to ever open our hearts and never know it doing so. I know it is confusing when you meet someone to wonder if there will be more, if you were good enough. Why they are interested in you ? if they interested in the right things about you ? The feelings of butterflies can get overwhelmed and make them fly away. We will put ourselves through hell and back. Yes trying to figure shit out or someone. Sometimes we just got to go with the flow and keep the glow. But that is life to say that as bluntly as possible,with the way we are evolving in the world in this day and age. We will always have unanswered questions about love and dating. Just dont ask yourself too many questions about someone. Let it float out and if it don't, well pretend you just drove down a rocky city road. So those confused on dating sending me messages, there are so many to answers. But so many that I will never be able to answer even myself. But each to their own on what they are looking for, I cant answer those things. What we find in another is always through our own eyes and letting others see that. Can be hard if they never felt that way or they have never been told they beautiful. We all will take things how we hear them,but sometimes they go from positive to the ears and then negative to the mind. All again it is life treats that get handed to us. So don't search for it, let it come to you. You will always have people look at you more then yourself and wonder why they are interested in you. Negativity should not be in your head at all if someone is sincere to you and you know it is just you. Loosen up, not all are out there to harm the mind and cut the heart. Again doubting things with one can lead to a destruction off the start to something great because of too many questions. Meeting someone will always be confusing in every way. 2019 Is a New year and new you they say. Well let things be where there should and if you gonna doubt someone so much. Don't be there, if you are looking for reasons why they dont fit. You are broken or have no interest,but at times can be the shitty way they were treated before. I am saying straight the fuck out of the gates,you ladies are so bloody confusing and not sure about you dudes,not dating you. Our comfort zones have huge barriers sometimes are so fucking hard to over come. We learn alot about ourselves when we are uncomfortable. We will hate ourselves for them at times and we can ruin our own thoughts about us and many thoughts about another. On my last date I was left feeling fabulous at first, then left asking myself so many questions the following day. Was more confused then a ball of yarn trying to make a straight line. Although some people we find are a complete match, negativity from the other can take away the feeling all to fast. Leaving more questions,like should I pursue or walk away. Dating now is and never will be easy,having zones we must walk out of to feel loved,caressed and to love. So many bad moments we have all endured over the years, makes a thick wall that eventually to be happy. There must be a way in or loneliness will be along soon. So choose wisely on what makes you happy, until then enjoy learning about yourself. Confusion is always gonna be part of dating.

Rudi Jensen

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