Missing people

Sometimes we have people walk out of our lives or walk out ourselves. Leaving a huge void in your heart and mind. Wishing things were different because you were 2 rocks to one another. I miss this very much and suffer a great deal in life over one. Not sure I will be able to ever forget or stop missing the smile and laughter. The times doing crazy and stupid shit, space is space in life. Sometimes we need it and other times it is what is best. Hardest part is knowing if it is forever or not. Leaving certain times and days of the years harder to deal with. As the memories are soaring high and emotions creeping up. Wondering if they miss you the same or if you are the only one. These parts of my life I am not sure I will get over or ever see them again. But I dream alot about the first hug if that day comes. Be a hold long needed to drain sorrows, pain, hurt while rising love, happiness and glory come. We all have that one person or someone who was our Rock. That shoulder to cry on and person where there is no holds barred conversation. Where you could speak your mind and not be judged. Some losses are more then we think. Some carry ever lasting internal pain for many years. I always thought after the first year they would ease off. But nope, just more memories and hurt as it goes on. So we all will have these moments and it is in no way something I could tell anyone to just move on for. Because then I would be 2 stepping by not releasing mine. Enjoy the memories in every way possible. One day or not maybe you will ignite the souls together again.. ©Rudi Jensen