Contemplating death

So I would imagine now that most people out there with this virus going around. Losing work, family, friends and lovers. Losing homes, vehicles and more. The need to run doubt throughout the mind is near impossible to put aside. So what does one do overly stressed ? they doubt their existance. All the things they have done good or bad, seeing which weighs more then the other. All the things we lost, messed up and just gave up on when we shouldnt have. The thoughts or conteplating your death. During this time all the things we do bad come and haunt our every thought, all the not pushing enough forward haunts us, the just being plain and having no family, no real friends and no love. It rips people apart deep inside. Then without all that going on in and around you. Finances are just a dying breed to many and that gets one thinking the easy way out. In many situations in life we are tiold to suck it up, hold our heads high. Well alot of those times there are no help, there are no friends, lovers or family to help. When the mind goes, it truly just goes. When one cannot think because their head is messed in a rats nest of thoughts. Contemplating death is easy and even more easy to follow through with. This being said we really dont know who in our lives are suicidal and who is not. We can only assume, there are no signals when it comes down to it. When we are in a crisis our minds go into a defesive mode. Trying to protect us and at most fullfilling that. But at others exceeding our capabilities and taking our mind even further. So many things in life can and will make us have ill thoughts. It will happen and we can avoid it all we want, but it will come at some point. Now to ma many people say many things about a mind that has fallen and someone has taken or is contemplating suicide. Now we have no choice if we are unaware, some can be saved. Some well they cant be be as sad as it sounds. My whole pint is here we all think it could never happen to us. When we should never live in so much doubt. Saying your mind will never crash, is like saying your computer will never crash. Keep your dreams all over the place, but your mind tight.. Always offer support to anyone who needs it. Rudi Jensen