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"Loneliness is very present in all our lives somewhere.
Comes in many shapes and forms.
Cause so much pain abroad
I awake daily with a burning and aweful taste in my mouth.
Feeling sick to my stomach weekly.
I have what most want and need in life to get ahead.
But I'm lacking the feeling of being loved.
I have a partner, convinced I am that just for now guy or the just settled guy.
Cant shake the feeling,
Not sure if it is me or her.
I feel drained waiting to be touched and held.
I actually long for it I feel so desperate  wanting my partner's touch.
I know I am not the greatest lover in any means at all.
But I have lived so long begging for your touch your love and sex.
My world is constantly crashing.
Making me feel weighed down to the loneliness.
How can one love,but not want to touch,
hold,caress or make love to their partner.
To me it must be a hatred
Am I unattractive
Maybe before I was such a bad boyfriend,
Even though my ways have changed.
Her feelings for me and attitude have not.
No amount of crying or madness will make that feeling go away.
I have spent endless years crying deep inside,
Losing some of myself and my integrity.
Running in circles trying to have the love we all chase and want.
I am always trailing behind with sadness.
My heart constantly bleeds for her love,
I love her more then words can express.
No money or assets could change that
This lonely and unloving feeling is killing me slowly inside.
For I can have many her's,but will not
But only she catches my heart and mind.
"

Rudi Jensen