Sleepless Nights

"I have had many sleepless nights,
Pondering every thought
one could imagine.
Lived in the depths of the woods for
survival.
Slept on floors, dirt and rock.
With many couches, shady places and
closets inbetween.
Searching for a way out.
Hiding from my mind,
Desperately trying to be free,
To experience even the thought
of liking myself.
I have cried many streams and rivers
worth of tears..
Been shattered by so much pain,
It physically hurt.
At most times finding my face in the dirt.
Life comes and life goes.
One day I will find that flow.."

©Rudi Jensen