Suicidal

"As I lay my head down forever,
I slowly start to remember,
Times of laughter and joy.
Being loved and cherished.
The fulfillment that has crossed through
my body.
I also ponder the struggles and pain,
The heart break and anguish,
As my mind starts to ponder leaving it all behind,
Wondering where it all went.
Wondering if I would live happily
ever after.
Much to everything, my mind was mostly a scatter,
I could really never deal with any matter.
Losing daily control of my mind and body daily.
I am ready to lay my head to rest.
The moods, angry thoughts, hurt and disappointment.
Have made it time to shutter
As my heart has no more flutter.
So I write this letter
As I rest my head forever...."

©Rudi Jensen