The Forest Part #1

As I enter the forest lost within my mind,
Searching for a way to find myself again.
I look around for the beauty I had once known,
And have learned to love and adore.
I know it is amongst me,
I can feel it inside.
Knowing its there, but leaving me blind in the moment.
For I am filled with darkness and sorrows,
Bitter pain and torn in two,
Feeling broken far beyond repair.
I enter knowingly I may find a better path,
I may even see the light once again.
Hoping the burning pain through out me will cease.
Leaving me to feel alive again,
Full of energy and laughter.
Easing what is lurking inside.
But the farther I seek into the forest,
The deeper my thoughts go throughout every part of me.
I feel the land and the trees trying to be one with me.
But I am still not ready to release.
As there is still a slight disturbance inside.
Feeling lost the deeper I go,
Do I really wanna peek on the inside further
All these questions and thoughts trapped in my
mind while I search for a better me.
It is getting seemly chilly,
I start to ponder if that is just my emotions.
Things are coming in waves,
Disturbing vibrations I have never felt before.
Am I coming with one,
Or am I falling deeper?.
As I feel these emotions,
That are causing me commotions.

©Rudi Jensen